Grief

How do you explain grief over something you never knew, never held, never touched or kissed?

I just want to breakdown every time I think about it.

I will never know if it was a boy or girl.

If it would have looked like Sadie.

It's little smile.

I will never get to hug my little one or smell that baby smell.

I know the little one is in a better place and someday I will be with him/her I guess I just don't understand why that time couldn't be now? Why was I teased with another little being only to have it ripped away? The excitement, anticipation, happiness that comes with a new baby...gone.

Slacker

So I am a complete blogging slacker.

Things happening in our life since April.

I have a new job which I just adore.

Steve has a new position at work.

We have successfully planted a ball of cells in my uterus.

Sadie is amazing and can pretty much carry on a conversation.

I am returning to school to keep on pursuing my masters in HR.

I am in love with pop music.

We are looking for a new car.

My bff is still my bff through thick and thin.

I love caffeine.

I have learned that sadly friends are more dependable then family.

Life is busy but good.