Loss of Identity?

I think I am going through an early midlife crisis. Lately I feel like I am 13 again and at an awkward age where I couldn't shop in the girls but didn't want to go to the ladies section. I am having major drama regarding my wardrobe and my whole being in general.

When I try to shop I go to my typical stores which include Hollister, Abercrombie, Forever 21 and Wet Seal. When I go in I feel like all of the 15 year olds are wondering what the old lady is doing in there? Yet when I try to shop at J Crew or NY and Co. I feel like everything is so mature and unstylish and not to mention expensive!.

I feel a similar lack of spunk from my hairstyle. My typical "reverse mullet" doo where it is long in the front and spiky/fun it the back just looks like a 16 year old trying to still be young and my makeup seems so gaudy for a mom. I totally don't want to be a poser or embarrass my daughter by dressing too young but I am at a total loss of how to act/look/dress now that I am almost 26.

I have also heard from unnamed people that I act too immature for someone with a child?!?! Too immature? I am a total kid at heard and love to have and not act my age. So does this mean I should stop being who I am?

I need to find my "new" identity and find it fast.

In other news it seems like Sadie is saying something new every day and I feel like I am not keeping up with it all. Last night she said "tann tue" for thank you! So adorable. I just love that little chick.

So I am majorly depressed that I have school tonight but excited that since it is Thursday night that means one thing, Red Robin dinner! Yes! So good.

I have a paper I also need to start on my personal development. What grade are we in again?